Have you ever felt so tired in your life not because of all the physical work entrusted in you but with all the things that occurred at once on you and eventually you get tired? Well, at this point, I think I have.
I completely moved on, I don’t really care anymore, I am getting insensitive with this issue and I completely want to forget about everything. In fact, I’m starting to forget things bit by bit. But by the time I was already forgetting and stopping about caring, the issue came up again because of people who talked to me recently after coming up the same things again.
It was a slap in the face when I was already happy about my situation even though I am not that okay. I forgot about them, I forgot about what happened before. All I can think about is what happens today or maybe what will probably happen by the end of the year or next year.
Well, hello. I just don’t know how to organize my thoughts right now so pardon me for saying things in the most ridiculous manner.
I honestly don’t know what’s wrong with me. Lately, I’ve been acting quite strange just because things are flustering for some reason that made me more clueless.
I know I’m angry. I’m completely aware of that. But why am I angry? And who is behind all this? Am I mad at myself, to somebody else or what?
I got mad to some people who don’t even deserve such hatred because they’re not the root of the anger in any manner. But why?
I’ve been mad to someone lately who didn’t do anything wrong. I’m not mad at that person, I think. I’m mad at the mere fact that his/her doings affect something in between. It literally pisses me off. And some other people are turning into barricades because they want things for their own and it’s affecting my attitude towards different kinds of people.
I know someone’s mad at me right now for acting unusual again. I’m sorry I put you to a state where things get absurd.
Because Kamisama Hajimemashita is the reason why I have been giggling, wiggling, stomping, laughing and acting stupid because of the cheesy and kilig vibes. I cannot handle the kilig vibes anymore guys. Tomoe is mine, okay.
I have no right to feel affected with your tweet but let’s say I’m trying to address this to you if ever you’re referring to me. This is just simple but a very long message. Probably you won’t read it, although you’re completely aware that I own a blog but you know nothing about it. So here I go.
I can’t say the things to you right now because I know you’re mad at me. Well, let’s say I am too towards you for some reason that you might not even understand (even I couldn’t understand myself, so we’re just fair).
I’m sorry if all of the anger I kept inside me turned to be a burden on you. I realized that you’re tired of understanding me because of my complications as a human being and especially as an overthinker. You may not be completely unaware of how I feel right now, that’s why you’re too tired to understand too.
I’m not completely mad at you. Maybe just a little but not entirely. I really do miss the old times, parts. It’s just that maybe I couldn’t accept anymore that you changed, I changed and our ways changed and didn’t intersect with each other anymore. Maybe we are two different lines intersecting with each other and when it’s time to go forward, we have ourselves to part ways and never meet again. It feels bad, to be honest. I don’t know with you if you actually missed everything.
I miss the times when I was the one who could hear all of your burdens no matter what it is all about. It may be about our classmates, our plastik masyado na friends, or even your family. I just miss the old things. It’s just that I think it’s already too late because you moved forward while I’m still stuck.
I miss the times when we used to agree on everything. You hate her, I hate her too. You hate him, I hate him too. You like this song, I like it too. We sing them together sometimes and act like crazy people running on the streets but it seems like the world turned upside down. Now you found the complete replacement of me and your own best friend. Can’t you see? I just wanted the old things back.
I miss everything, okay?
It just pisses me off because you said that you didn’t come with us just because the others were the ones calling you instead. But how are we supposed to call you when in fact, they’re the ones who are dragging you away from us? I might sound too possessive, to be honest with you, but still I care. I care so much that it hurts me whenever I see you so happy with other people.
It’s so mababaw and OA but please think twice.
I’m just so sorry that the anger I piled up earlier was all thrown back to you. I’m really sorry. I’m sorry if you’re so tired of understanding me why I’ve been so unruly and rude lately. Sorry if sayo ko nalabas ang galit ko sa ibang tao, naiinis na kasi ako. Kailangan ba talagang ipamukha sa akin? Masakit na eh. Kahit joke lang ako ng joke dito, marunong din kasi akong masaktan.
Hi guys. I’m really sorry if I haven’t been updating lately. Pretty busy with school stuff and all, but I swear I’ll try. Right now, I’m at the library doing some layouts for the certificates for tomorrow’s seminar-workshop. I’m using my coach’s laptop which is, apparently, connected to the internet for teachers so yeah, she allowed me to use it as long as I finish the work given to me. Awesome!
Let’s say both of us had our mistakes of our own, affecting one another. And to me, I don’t think I have problem with you anymore. Maybe this time, I have a problem with myself on how to deal with people like you. Both may sound the same but the context of each statement is different with one another.
Well, I’m sorry if I act a bit more of a stupid person than you can probably think of. Maybe you think there’s no really purpose of acting that way when in fact there’s nothing to highlight. Okay, now I’m talking real nonsense. I’m just typing what’s in my mind right now because these technical papers are killing me, and I don’t know if I’m still able to survive this insanity.
Anyway, I find this an opportunity to update my blog because I just came home from an overnight seminar/workshop for our bibliodrama and it’s actually regional. So, let me do this thing going.
I actually cannot find a reason aside from having a problem about myself in encountering people like you. I don’t know, there’s something about you or maybe people who are just the same with you that might trigger my mood and maybe change my whole being. It might sound a bit of absurd but we cannot avoid that this is entirely a fact.
Well, okay, fine. I’m wrong for acting that way. Okay, I was stupid and all. Okay fine, ikaw na ang tama. But please, it sucks to know that kumakapit ka sa ibang tao kasi hindi mo na makakapitan yung iba then slowly di mo nararamdaman na yung kinakapitan mo, nalulunod na din pala so that means you’re going to be back to the origin and the process goes back again from beginning to end. Nakakainis lang, diba?
Then, I already gave you the chance but you just let go of it, ano pa ba ang magagawa ko? Pipilitin ko pa ba ang sarili ko sayo? Gusto mo ba talaga na isiksik ko sarili ko sayo? Do you think I’m that desperate to do such thing? Hahaha, if you think so, you’re thinking in a stupid manner because I’m not that kind of person. This kind of thought comes back and back again but I just want to tell you that I might act stupid sometimes but I’m not easy to fool.
Credits kay Rio, hehe. Congratulations again to us, UIC High Senior Red Cross Youth Council for winning Best in Splinting Relay, Best in Bleeding Control and Bandaging Relay, Best in Patient Transfer Relay, Best in Situational Problem Solving and again, the Over-All Champion for the Inter-School First Aid Competition High School Category! Padayon sa pag-uswag!
Hi. Hehe, so I know I’ve been busy lately and all and this is the result of all the hard work we’ve exerted! I am a part of the splinting team of UIC SRCYC and it’s overwhelming in our part since it was the first time for the four of us.
- Over-all Champion High School Category
- Best in Splinting Relay
- Best in Control Bleeding
- Best in Patient Transferring (ERT)
- Best in Situational Problem Solving
It’s overwhelming because it was our first time (the four of us) and it is the very first time that our school won the best for the splinting relay. We didn’t expect to be that fast, although we cannot say that we are completely accurate. But still, I am very proud of us!
Again, congratulations to us UIC SRCYC! Kaya natin to, defend natin ang titles natin forever! Hahaha chosera. Thanks to Royce and Shaina for the photos, wala akong photos eh. Hahaha!